my belly.

today is 2 months exactly.

that i have had these itchy dots over my body.

crazy isn't it?

and even though itching all day long isn't usually apart of my life, 

i am starting to get used to it.

i remember walking into work on august 9th,

and wondering why on earth my neck was itching so bad.

soon enough it went to my arms, legs, stomach, and everywhere else.

anyway.

i've never been one to show off my stomach.

& not that there is actually anything to show off exactly...

 other than my awesome cheetah spots.

i figure its not that big of a deal.

(actually it is kind of a big deal, but truth be told, 

i am just excited its getting better & 

am feeling the need for people to be excited with me).

EVERYONE.

my guttate psoriasis is healing.

you know when you have the most handsomest boyfriend,

and he says the most cutest of cute things,

and you feel in love,

and you have butterflies?

that is how i feel right now.

feeling so thrilled and blessed.

(a big thanks to DoTERRA oils, jill-my doc, my aunt, cousin, and mama of course)

ps. if you think the picture above is bad?

you would have gone blind if you saw me a week ago ;)

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with being itchy still and all.

i am loving that fall is keeping my spirits high.

i love being so cozy ALL of the time.

it makes my heart feel happy.

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my pretty little sister, savannah & i.

MAGIC.

Today was a grumpy madeleine day.
i tried really hard not to be, but my lack of sleep and itchiness was really getting to me!
so i apologize to my mom and gabrielle, for the "mad madeleine" that came back a little today.
(mad madeleine was my nickname from the ages 8-11).

but for some good news!

i went to the

"witch doctor" or so they call her.

I am kind of hoping she will become my fairy god mother, and work some serious magic.

I have basically been to every kind of doctor, and she was my last resort.

Today i found out...

1. my digestive system is totally messed up.

2. the antibiotics (i've been on for over a month) have been feeding my psoriasis.  (making it worse).

3. the steroids, which i've been on & off of were also feeding my psoriasis.

4. i am completely and totally mineral depleted.

5. SUGAR (which is my absolute favorite) also feeds my psoriasis. which is very unfortunate for me  (sugar being the only thing keeping my mood somewhat content).

- - - - - - - 

Speaking of witches and things of that sort.

my little sister told me that i have "witch hands" and that they look like they came off of the movie tangled.

-she was completely serious.

we laughed...

and then i became self conscious.

and to get rid that that self consciousness.

here are my witch hands: 

(ps. i am absolutely loving my current nail polish)

ANYWAY. the doctor gave me quite a hard TO DO list.
1. i can only eat organic meat and vegetables for the next two weeks.
(almost passed out when she said that.)
2. i have to have a cup of water with a teaspoon of baking soda, twice a day.
3. i have to drink a cup of water with 5 drops of melaleuca, four times a day.
(it has quite a terrible taste if you didn't already know.)
4. mineral pills.
&
5. probiotic pills.

While she was telling me this, the only list i was thinking was:
1. no sweets.
2. no sweets.
3. no sweets.
4. no sweets.
&
5. no sweets.

wish me luck!
oh, and ps. today i had for the first time in a long time, the feeling that i am going to get better!
cloud 9 status for sure.
happy wednesday!