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its kind of a lovely love story.

rewind to two years ago.

my handsome elder payton left on his mission.

i am going to allow myself to say, that was one of the 

hardest things i have ever gone through.

saying goodbye to your very best friend

is probably one of the worst things in the entire world.

-those who have sent off missionaries know the feeling.

its terrible, but was so worth it in the end.

...

he served the Lord for two years,

and did his very best.

he was obedient, strong, understanding, and diligent.

his letters were always positive and happy.

he was simply amazing.

& the more we wrote,

the more i just KNEW.

.....

he came home on the 12th of february.

i was so overwhelmed with all sorts of emotions.

at this point, i felt like he wasn't a real person.

two whole years of not seeing his handsome face.

-i was going to burst-

...

the time of his flight landing,

kept changing.

what felt like forever,

my mom finally ran over and announced that his flight had landed!

if i remember accurately, i started bawling.

i just couldn't believe it.

...

it took him about 25 minutes to get off the plane,

and to come down the escalator.

when he reached the escalator, i was hyperventilating

so bad that my mom literally had to hold me up.

...

he gave his family hugs.

and then it was my turn.

i almost knocked him over i hugged him so hard.

and that probably had to do with the fact that my whole body was numb.

...

he told me he loved me at the airport,

and i didn't think i could get any happier.

.......

little did i know.

valentines day was incredible.

just being with him made me indescribably happy.

he even painted my nails,

and at that point i knew he would be perfect.

we started looking at rings, online.

and i thought i found the winner,

but ring shopping is a lot harder than it looks!

we talked about a lot of things.

and figured them out.

& then we experienced our first

car accident together.

even though it was the other persons fault.

he was so kind, and understanding.

we played in the snow.

it was his first snow storm back.

we always have fun.

....

he surprised me with a picnic and lots of my favorite things.

he is so thoughtful.

...

he gave an incredible homecoming talk.

his strong testimony made me love him even more.

we went on a double date with his parents to scheels.

and we had a blast as usual.

he makes me laugh.

and its my real laugh.

& i love that.

we made a big decision this night together...

(the date of our wedding)

he asked my dads permission.

and passed with flying colors of course.

ring shopping took place literally 20 minutes after.

and within 20 minutes of being at the store,

i found the one.

-that was a little emotional-

the lady said that it would take 2 - 3 days to be made.

he bought it on a wednesday.

and i was convinced he was going to purpose on that saturday.

i was wrong.

and for those who know me well,

know i am very impatient.

so the suspense was very well killing me.

...

he asked me on a date on monday.

and said we were going to go fire golfing.

i loved the idea.

(i didn't say anything but i knew he was going to ask me :)

....

he came to pick me up around 6.

being me, i of course wasn't ready yet.

so he sat in my room,

patiently watching me run around frantically

trying to find something to wear.

...

i love that when he walked in,

i could tell by his face that we was going to ask me to be his wife.

oh my gosh i love him.

......

we seriously took the weirdest way to the lake.

i told him he was going the wrong way.

but he is always right,

and knew just where to go, of course.

...

we walked down this walkway and there were candles

lighting the way.

and there were candles, outlining a big heart.

...

i kept looking around trying to see if there were any

cars, and i was listening the best i could to see if 

i could hear anyone else talking.

because i knew the whole family was going to be there.

...

but i heard and saw nothing.

..

we golfed fire.

and it was so cool.

really, i loved it.

..

i noticed he kept looking at his phone.

he would act like he was using it as a light,

but i could tell he was texting.

which he never does on a date,

so i just KNEW.

he then told me we should just light all

of the golf balls on fire at once.

...

i kept thinking i was going to turn around 

and he was going to be on his knee.

but it just didn't happen.

...

we started talking,

and hugging.

and then he asked me to dance.

...

i started giggling,

and i don't even know why.

and then BOOOOOM!!!

FIREWORKS.

and not the little dinky ones.

the BIG ones.

it scared me so bad,

i probably jumped 5 feet.

then i started giggling way more.

and kept saying,

"oh my gosh, oh my gosh"

and then i wanted to cry.

 but i didn't because i was still giggling,

and just way too happy.

...

he then, got down on one knee.

and grabbed my hand.

and said,

"madeleine pinegar,  will you marry me?"

i said yes a million times.

and we kissed, and hugged, and kissed more.

and then both of our families came running down.

-love them all so much-

...

i am beyond happy.

and he loves me even when you can't see the floor in my room.

he is mine forever, & i have never felt so happy.

i feel so blessed and grateful!

i love you karson payton!

5.10.13 cannot come soon enough.

bam.

you know what i love?

the moment everything seems to fall into place.

life just feels so incredibly scattered and it is most of the time.

i feel confident and brave one moment,

and sad and confused another.

today, was one of those days that everything seemed to fall into place.

i am 100 percent on what my major is going to be!

now this is very good news,

seeing that i change my mind almost everyday.

i have gone from wanting to study fashion to an elementary teacher, to studying history.

and lately i have just felt so icky about everything and 

really worried about what i am supposed to do.

BUT it hit me today and it hit me hard. (drum roll please)...

i am going to be a

s o c i a l w o r k e r.

ew, that kind of sounds terrible.

but i am going to help people.

& i get to help those people realize just how wonderful they really are.

-what could be better than that?-

nothing.

iamsoexcitediwanttoscream!